Capital L-A-Z-Y!

La⋅zy  [ley-zee]
1. averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent.
2. causing idleness or indolence
3. slow-moving; sluggish

This is me lately. I am not proud to admit it. But I feel exactly this way. It's easy to give excuses to help justify my lazy behavior but deep down inside I know I can and should be a more productive person. This week I've had a couple of good eye opening experiences to help me realize I need to straighten up.

#1. For a few weeks now, I have been so tired in the mornings that Spencer gets Austin up and ready for school. There have been several mornings when I have not dragged myself out of bed early enough to make Austin breakfast before school. I am embarrassed to admit this, but I have sent him to school quite frequently, with money in hand, so he can eat breakfast there, simply because I am too lazy to make him some myself. This morning was no exception. I woke up late, gave him some money, and told him to hurry so he wouldn't miss the bus. The look on his face has been haunting me all day when he looked at me and said, "but Mom, I want to eat at home!" I told him he didn't have time to today and sent him on his way. The level of guilt I have been feeling all morning is horrible. That is not the kind of Mom I want to be!!

#2. On Wednesday evening our Young Women's Presidency put on a New Beginnings Program for the girls. A couple of the leaders put a lot of effort into the program. Jeanette was asked to find a sister in the ward who would be willing to babysit in the Nursery during the presentation. She didn't just stop there. Not only did she find someone, but she (Jeanette) brought bagels, and all kinds of spreads for them, and even grapes for the kids to eat. It was impressive! This made me realize that I do just enough to get by. Very rarely do I go that extra mile, and I know it's out of laziness. Realizing this just adds on even more guilt.

So publicly announcing my laziness isn't something I think is fun, but I feel like I need to do it. In some way it makes me feel like now that people know, I am somehow held accountable. I am in the process of getting a game plan together so I can be more productive. If anyone has any advice for me, I would love to hear it.